My gay marriage to Christian Pelleschi was at the Beverly Hills courthouse on 12/14/16!


I am sort of a shadow behind the candle light. I am finding lately my path coming in collaboration with grandiose artists. I’m so close to the flame, I never have a dull moment coalescing with people that intrigue me. I feel like I should have been Patti Smith to Mapplethorpe, but I have found my Mapplethorpe but this is not the reason why I am unsingle.

I was born in 1983 in New York. I scored the highest IQ in elementary school. I was given a plaque by the mayor and photographed in front of a Christmas tree for the town paper. I was also tested several times for ADHD. I grew up. I was diagnosed as having bipolar disorder after being an inpatient at a hospital for a week. I grew up some more.

Excerpt of Diagnosis from Psychotherapist

"Chris has been diagnosed with anxiety disorder with depressive features (f41.8). Client’s symptoms and precipitated and/or exacerbated by numerous symptoms classified under autism spectrum disorder. Due to his anxiety, social interaction difficulties and communication challenges, he experiences difficulty regulating affect and negotiating conflict."

No inhibitions, no regrets.

I try to be someone who doesn’t let himself get in the way of doing what he wants to do. I have ridden a bike in almost ten different countries. I lived many lives and I have never lived in the same place for more than two years until I moved to Los Angeles. I have a symbolic relationship with Los Angeles as living here is like living on a bunch of cracks and fragments. I think the fragments from around these cracks are the tectonic plates that keep this city moving. There is a hazy cloud of angelenos who literally live on separate tectonic plates and co-exist as a sub-community of the moving car. And I embrace the counterintuitive impulse to coexist on a tectonic plate, movement against movement, and I like the weather.


I work as a bouncer videographer at a popular music venue and work as a freelance web designer, editor and tutor. I immerse in the bizarre psychodynamics of social interaction. I am able to sort things out in my mind more clearly while seeing how intricate and alive everything is. I am fascinated by the identities of poets who are dead, anti-social or otherwise disconnected from life. I collage, write, film and otherwise creates poetry installations that explore my interest in embodiment. I am interested in the evolution of the poetic process that transforms language into something that manifests a poetic or conceptual/artistic language.

Although I have a Ph.D., I do not enjoy talking about everything and am too fluent in existential conversations that I feel a glib disconnection to them nowadays, I’d rather make a good sex video.


An accurate test taken from

100% Non-monogamist
99% Exhibitionist
98% Voyeur

74% Vanilla
69% Experimentalist

49% Primal (Prey)
48% Masochist
47% Ageplayer

36% Switch
30% Slave
23% Degrader
16% Degradee
13% Submissive
13% Dominant
13% Primal (Hunter)
10% Rigger
4% Brat
2% Boy/Girl
2% Daddy/Mommy
1% Rope bunny
1% Sadist
0% Pet
0% Owner
0% Master/Mistress

I am NOT your Master/Mistress
I am NOT your owner
I am NOT your pet
I am NOT your sadist
I am NOT your “rope bunny”
I am NOT your Daddy/Mommy
I am NOT your Boy/Girl
I am NOT your brat.

Interesting Topics


I have a certificate from a workshop I completed in the enneagram (5w4 sx/so) and Myers Briggs (IXTP).

Ayurvedic Stuff, Transcedental Meditation, Veganism, Massage

I’ve been obsessed with the Buddhist Bhavacakra (realms of existence) – if true, I am in the self-indulgent and larger-than-life god realm, which is a good and bad place for me. Since I am on the highest realm, I’ll be exhausting all of my good karma and not suffer enough to ascend to a higher level since I’m perpetually doomed to be at the highest one!

Bicycle Riding as a primary means of transport, tattoo ideas, conceptual writing/poetry, collage, photography, open marriages, español, life in exile,


Genres: darkwave / synth

Joy Division, Pumarosa, Justice, Pink Floyd, Siouxsie and the Banshees, Cocteau Twins, ionnalee, Black Marble, Ringo Deathstarr, The Jesus and Mary Chain, TR/ST, Drab Majesty, Tamaryn, My Bloody Valentine, Jawbreaker, Knapsack, Placebo, Marnie from Ladytron, IAMX, The Misfits


Sylvia Plath, Albert Camus, Slavloj Zizek, Michel Foucault, Judith Butler, Clark Coolidge, William Burroughs, Michael McClure, Ann Lauterbach


Captain Fantastic, Gone Girl, Goya’s Ghosts, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Gone with the Wind, Donnie Darko, The Shining, Inception, Inside Out, Mysterious Skin, Green Room, Her, Girl Interrupted, I Don’t Feel at Home in This World Anymore, Before Sunset, Dogville, The Graduate, Lucky Number Slevin, The Battle of Algiers, Nightcrawler